Yesterday and today I’ve been having really addictive obsessive thinking from work, to relationships, to thoughts of drinking/using, etc.
I know it is normal and I’m proud of myself for not acting on them. I don’t plan on acting on them. I am learning and finding balance.
I just wish I could find more contentment in the moment. Not constantly ready for the next thing tripping about the future.
I had the same feeling
I've been going through the same thing and future tripping a lot I'm just working on recentering myself and staying where my feet are
I hear you. Yesterday was the first time in years that I dragged myself to a meeting. I was worrying and worrying and trying to control all the outcomes of all the things I destroyed. Driving in my truck, I heard a speaker talking about worshipping at the temples of wealth and work and relationships. And I called my recovery buddy. He was talking about giving it all to God. So I went to a meeting, and guess what the topic was? Let go and let God.
You are absolutely correct in not acting on your addiction.
I don’t give them power, I remember that these crazy times come and they pass.
It does get easier as we get stronger and wiser. However, I implore you to really work on the 12 steps to the best of your ability. There was and still is huge relief in this process. It really works if we work it.
I’m here if you want to talk
I have that been forcing myself to stay in the present. The past isn't real. It doesn't exist and you're depressed there. The future isn't real. It doesn't exist and you have anxiety there. It's kind of like meditation because we're always bringing ourselves back centering ourselves. I just do it with the present.
I feel you on so many levels. It’s gotta get better for us, mama, it’s just gotta…