After 16 years of sobriety i relapsed HARD. The last

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After 16 years of sobriety i relapsed HARD. The last two years of my life have been a nitemare i lost everything my house ,my 4 kids,even lost every material thing i owned.. no i didn't sell them my home i myself paid off ended up with mold! I can sit here today with 4 almost 5 months clean :+1: jail, rehab,back to streets living on them even & again the cycle just kept Snow balling till i had nothing left after a bad seizure down to 89 pounds i gave up .. and boy am i happy i did i couldn't keep letting something have such a hold on me anymore im a very loud mouth independent female :sob: so this wasn't me. Please :pray: keep pushing yourself to fight if u mess up try again as long as your trying you will i promise finally say wow that felt good one day at a time

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#2

Thank you for sharing. I related to everything you said. I hope you're doing good. Keep fighting. :heart::pray:

#3

Thank you so much! Sitting here in my feeling. Had none stop using dreams last nite and now living so close to where I use to use .you know what I mean isn't easy for me on days like today :pensive: but God thanks for even taking the time to read my post u have no idea how good that feels when u have no one to talk to my entire family passed when I was in highschool even my mom died eleven years ago tomorrow all I have are my 4 kids who I get to see my little ones one Sunday every 2 weeks. Hope and pray you are doing well

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#4

I lost my Mom too, in 2019. It's tough, but keep your focus on getting better for your babies; that's what's been helping me. It's true what they say, "What you focus on will grow." You can do this! :heart:

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@alisha305215

  1. Thank you for sharing. It takes a lot of courage to do so. Especially after 16 years.
  2. Welcome home for the most part the nitemares are over, for the most part.
  3. There is nothing we can suggest that you don't already know. We are just glad you're here.
  4. I can quote AA Big Book till I'm blue in the face to you. You are the only one who can take action. We are here to help you.
  5. You didn't lose anything it was taken away from you. Call it for what it is (old school AA tough love).
  6. My prayer for you is the God (your higher power) places one hand over your mouth and the other on your shoulder to guide you.
  7. If any of this makes sense then I'm hear/here for you.

You know what to do and what the next indicated step is.

Be safe my friend.