After 4 years sober and going through so much to get there Im surprised how much I want to drink when something bad happens. I am in a monitoring program so that really is a big help in relapse prevention. But I wonder if the urge to drink will always keep popping up.
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I totally agree.
From a young age we're taught by the media, friends and even family members, that alcohol allows us to "take a load off"... our brains are wired this way now. Maybe it takes just as long to undo the wiring before we realize on a subconscious level that alcohol makes every situation worse. It never helped anything, we know this on a conscious level. Just waiting for the rest of my psyche to catch up!
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