After almost 20 years I'm still Powerless over being dope sick

After almost 20 years I'm still
Powerless over being dope sick and pimped and if not arrested my life be comes very unreasonable very fast
So I don't pick up that drink to start me off I make meeting I clean house so I can breath fresh air I help others who face my delimmia if I can I trust the process and I have a working relationship with my higher power who I go too before I messed up and after I messed up and put a step on getting better I am not perfect but I make progress my main goal in life what I read on a coin is not to out do my brother but too out do my enemy myself So my soul can soar
Thanks AA