Alcohol and cocaine ruined my relationship. We were chasing dopamine. Spending too much time together, rushing the relationship. Those things would've been easily fixed if we weren't drunk and high or hungover constantly. The constant bad moods, exhaustion, paranoia leading to insecurities. I love my girlfriend more than I've ever loved anybody, and I lost her because of drugs and alcohol. Now she's dumped me to "work on her mental health". Meanwhile I'm sober and she's out drinking and partying still. I lost a good one, my friends, a beautiful awesome person who has yet to take the steps to get better. I really pray she will find her way to a healthier life and come back to me. If not, I am better off without her, but it is so hard to say goodbye and let go. Truly heartbroken.
Anyway. I'm sober today, and I will be tomorrow. I don't know if I want to be sober forever, but I need to be sober to get through my heartbreak