I mentioned in another post that it is difficult to get sober, and easier to stay sober. I understand that struggle.
Working a program i learned i have a hole in my heart so big that working a spiritual program is the only way to fill it. I also learned that I could not stop drinking forever. FOREVER, is a really long time! I learned that I get a daily reprieve from alcohol based on my spiritual condition.
I learned these things AND MORE through the gift of desperation. I was so desperate to stop drinking that I would do anything for help, and that is anything. I changed my life, my relationship with alcohol, the way I interact with the world.
Working a program, working with others, getting into The Book, praying, meditating and other simple actions help me not pick up a drink. One day at a time.
I hope you find that gift.