It honestly doesn’t matter if it’s a good day or a bad day alcohol is just my go to way of celebrating or commiserating. Today is a cloudless spring day and all I want to do is drink outside somewhere. The reality is that I’m not sure I want to be sober forever, I do know that if I went and had a drink today it wouldn’t be just one drink. I want to be someone that doesn’t need to drink but can on occasion. I don’t know if that’s possible but if I can make it through today, day 18, still sober I’m one step closer to finding out.
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