Alcohol has robbed my life of so many things. I’m a chronic relapser and have been fighting the disease of alcoholism for all of my adult life. Things have gotten significantly worse after a slip in May. My life has become completely unmanageable. Despite all of the pain alcohol has caused me my disease still tells me to drink and I hate it. I’ve only been sober for 2 days and am starting to have thoughts of drinking again. I hate my crazy brain! I know that I truly don’t want to drink. I’ve been to 3 AA meetings today and still feel like I want to drink. I guess today is just one of those tough days where I’ll have to go to endless meetings to make it through sober. I’m taking it one minute at a time, white knuckling it. This really sucks. I sure hope it gets easier.
