Alcoholic? Or…am I a philosopher in a hotel, in crisis of why alcoholism ever came to need recovery, writing a book about questions already answered by the universe that other philosophers listened to it first about?
The answer is simple you see.
Google philosophy helpline. The first answer is a complicated one that never meant to have the answer which is how all answers need to remain.
It’s a company called philosophy.com I suppose?
They sell body products.

We’re all just passengers figuring out where the whole world fits in our brains, remembering sometimes to eat instead of thanking it for feeding us.
The answer is always right in front of us.
Every one of you, be strong.
Never give up. The universe will continue talking to us regardless of if we are listening to its laws of physics or religious beliefs that we were offered the biology to have tried to listen to it with.