I am on day one
I know it's not fun
Woke up in shame
Knowing it's only me to blame
But I'm on day one
I open my eyes
This is no surprise
The hurt, the pain
Why will it not subside
I drank it away for momentary bliss
10 minutes later it was only a wish
Change never happens when I rinse wash repeat
The deal with my devil is hard to defeat
The drink is my symptom of much bigger matters
For I am the problem for thinking this chatter
I need a new lens for seeing the world
One that doesn't see a life full of turmoil
No problem is too big even when I feel small
Recovery is possible just look at us all
Take care of today because tomorrow never comes
Each morning is a gift for me to try again
I am not alone, I need to let someone in
As each moment passes, another one appears
If I keep the bottle down, I can face my fears
It solves no problems and does not help me mend
So I am on day one
And I'm trying again
I see you and hear you
I've been where you are
It feels so daunting to look beyond the scars
They are there for a reason
The lessons you'll learn
They are parts of your life for you to discern
So ask for help, I couldn't do it alone
I'm working so hard to find a place I call home
I hope when you read this I've inspired you
Because when I wrote this I needed it too
