Almost 3 years sober on this stent. Had 1.5 years previous , thought i had it undercontrol but i lied to myself. Happy to say i am sober and have no plan or want to drink again! Took me till a few weeks ago to uncover my severe depression i was in and that i never had forgivin myself for my past! Im glad im figuring all this out now but at what cost. Its to late to save my 18 year marriage. The damage is done. I am becoming more at peace with my life and understanding that life will go on with our without her. She admited to me that she was never going to change who she was for me and was not worried anout my soberity. Its a sad day to know i wasted so much time with her when she never truly cared about my sobrity and how much it took to keep it, espcially when she kept on drinking. And when she does drink its always to the sloppy and crazy limit. Just remeber, tou need to change people, places and things! No matter how hard it may be! Its for your own good and soberity!
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I can relate. I just had my divorce finalized after a 15 year relationship. It's been recommended to me to not judge the path it required to get me sober, and my ex's sobriety path isn't up to me. It's a really bitter pill to swallow, but has merit. I'm learning to be thankful for my marriage and keep hope my ex might find sobriety - maybe even the program, which has given me tools for living with depression, anxiety, and need for control.
Keep on keepin' on. You're doing great!
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