Almost 5 months clean from meth and porn together (dual addiction) couldn’t have one without the other and currently separated from my wife for as long as I’ve been clean. I relapsed 12 times in our 6 years of marriage. I ruined the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Now, I’m just working, staying clean, and taking care of my four and a half year old son on the weekends.
I had 8 months clean and thought I could safely get away with watching people do shots of meth on Tumblr. That was the stupidest choice I ever made. The next day I was out the door on a 7 day bender and threw away the last chance my wife was willing to give. It’s such a hard choice to live with. I’ve been crying almost everyday for 5 months. I was so close to that one year mark where my wife would have really started to feel hopeful about our future. Now, I rent an apartment and stare out the window. I’ll be 47 on the 20th. I feel like the biggest idiot that ever existed.
I have a job, a vehicle, an apartment, my son, my parents, a relationship with Jesus Christ and my clean date - August 18, 2022.
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