Almost 9 months and i used again. I feel like

Recovery
#1

Almost 9 months and i used again. I feel like awful

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#2

Welcome back took me many tries

#3

Thank you my friend

#4

All part and parcel of the process. More experience. FAIL= First Attempt In Learning. You’re a winner Cassie!!:pray:

#5

People often think relapse begins when someone takes the first drink or drug. It doesn't.

Relapse is a process. It usually starts long before the substance ever touches your hand. It begins with changes in your thinking, your attitude, your emotions, your isolation, or your willingness to be honest. If those warning signs aren't addressed, they build until eventually you pick up.

The moment you take that first drink or drug, the relapse process is over. That's no longer relapse it's active use.

That's why recovery isn't just about avoiding a drink or a drug. It's about paying attention to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that come before it. Catch the process early, and you never have to reach the pickup.

#6

Good, you should feel bad. You put in a lot of hard work and now you feel like you have to start over. Remember the feeling you’re feeling right now and use it as a source of motivation, the next time you feel a craving. Do your best to remember how you feel at this exact moment and use the negativity you feel today to motivate you. Unfortunately, failure it’s just part of the process. But, like anything in life, making the same mistakes over and over again gets you no where. This is why am I encouraging you to remember how you feel right now, so that when the next time this happens, you have an inner strength from which to draw.

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#7

let’s point out the positives first, those 9 months are yours to keep, nobody can take what u learned getting there. I know the guilt and shame after using can be louder than anything, but don’t let it define ur today or tomorrow. U already did one of the most important things by posting this, ur inviting support in. What’s ur support system like, do u go to meetings? Keep showing up and posting whatever ur going through so this community can help carry it. That’s the biggest thing I didn’t do as a chronic relapser and wish I had. And u can DM me anytime