ALMOST picked up a drink

Recovery
#1

Had my shoes laced.
My keys and wallet in my pocket.
Was in “F IT” mode. Ready to burn it it down.
Had even gone out to my car and started it. Sat there for 5 min with my forehead on the steering wheel.
Went back inside to my rocking recliner and sat there with my cell phone opened to one of my AA friends. And just rocked and stared at the phone. The open contact. The green call button. Just rocking and staring. 2 paths ahead of me. My willpower was getting rocked…

Closed my eyes and hit that call button.

And now I am sitting here still sober and will wake up with 55 days under my belt.

Whew that was close.

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#2

That's great man glad you got through it. The mental obsession is ruff for us alcoholics. Do you have a sponsor? Did you connect with them?

#3

My sponsor got taken out. I was going to use that fact as an excuse to drink. But I called someone else in my homegroup. Good thing I had practiced calling people the prior few weeks (but it was still hard because my obsession was in 5th gear and I WANTED to drink).

#4

Powerful story. You made good decisions and you are allowed to celebrate those good decisions. You acted your way into right thinking. :+1: