I'm so sick of being alone I just want a partner companion or even a friend to be able to talk to all night Hang out with Even if it's on the phone. have fun with laugh With it's the first time in 26 years That i've been alone without a partner by my side To do things with or even talk to It's driving me nuts being alone and makes me want to use more then ever i dont know what to do but use to stop the pain and thoughts i have no one no family i can go to And I actually have no friends not one person im all alone So I'm reaching out. Maybe I can find Somebody that can be a texting buddy or something just to keep my mind busy and away from the racing thoughts and from using. I've tried the AI stuff, but that's just not Companionship i need real human interaction.
Sometimes the first step is finding small connections—places like this community are great for meeting people who get it. Sometimes it just takes time. Relapsing isn’t an option. It will have you in a worse space. There’s a monthly meeting coming up, when it’s near it will be announced. Come to the meeting so you can actually meet more people. You can also use this time to get to know yourself. There’s a lot of people who post daily whether they are struggling or sharing a gratitude comment and get her to know them. Hang in there. 
I'm with you about being alone 
I live in Hawaii and it's hard to make new friends and living here is tuff in trusting others that don't understand you were your heading in life 
Will I'm willing to make new friends and if you need a friend I'm here to a shoulder to lean on
Thank you I will start doing that it is hard for me to meet new people due to my past ptsd but I will try my hardest
It is very hard Especially at 40 years old, im not 4 years old. No more cant just walk up to somebody go. Hey, you wanna be my friend and we're friends I live in a very small town the only way anybody even knows. About this town it's because of watermelon and cantaloupe If it wasn't for that, this town would probably be a ghost town the closest places that I have to do anything is at least 60 to a 100 miles away.
And I can't go to local bar. I don't drink not to mention all that's in. There is old time farmers, so it's a really lonely life here. But thank you for your kind words. I appreciate that. And if you ever need anybody to talk to I'm here.Thank you
My suggestion get to meetings. Even zoom meetings are great. That’s how I started and still do daily. They are the greatest friends to connect with daily. This is a hard program but when you have people in the recovery it’s the best. Zoom is 247 so no excuses to miss a meeting. Best wishes
Thank you I will try to find one
Please do. It will be so helpful. They saved me a few times from starting again. 4 years and going strong thanks to them.
That is great it had to be hard and still is I bet thank you for the kind words and help