After I had been sober a few months I was pretty annoyed that my life wasn't perfect. Here I was all better now and living a clean life so why wasn't there a parade or some fireworks? Why was I still so unhappy?
It turns out the butthead inside me wasn't ready to accept that I was the problem as much as the booze was.
A speaker at AA really touched me with his story one night. It mirrored mine so well. I don't relate to many folks at AA so this was a rare treat.
His story, like mine, was a story of anger and rage coupled with alcoholism. So was mine!
That's when I made the choice to work on me. Therapy and some spiritual awareness were my first steps. I'm still stepping.
I'm not as scared anymore.
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Good morning Steven I had to think of my life coming out of drinking and drugging. My analogy is me opening up a dryer with clothes in it. Once I open the door, the clothes, keep spinning because I open the door too quickly, and the dryer was not finished. But if I continue to stay clean and sober, eventually, my mind and my life which are the analogy of the clothes.. will stop spinning and slowly be able to be sorted out
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