If your having a tough time and can’t stop drinking , start taking Antabuse , u drink while taking that and your gonna throw up your guts for hours !
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What is your end game? Drink like it’s okay because you have a medicine that makes you sick. Definitely alcoholic thinking! I completely understand that! However, you need to follow your logic in the end, not logical. Find me you’ll still have them on Zoom go to sponsor for the steps. Get rid of thatdo one day at time; No matter how many days, or years, we all just have one day to do the best we can with it!
Been on antibuse for over 5 months. Its more for my mom to feel confident about me not drinking, I let her have the relief she gets from giving it to me every morning. Its also a good check in the event that I get into thinking I can drink safely or one won't hurt, which has been my demise on a number of occasions resulting in relapse and detox.
Will stop soon. Feeling great!