Anxiety and depression aren't gonna make this any easier on me. I have been dealing with the both of them for many years now but after waking up in the middle of the night with a panic attack which isn't uncommon for me but having to remind myself that i'm wanting to stay away from alcohol makes this feel even heavier. I have to admit I'm a little worried about navigating through my depression and fighting to not be out socially drinking taunts me with isolation. I've been in bed since 630 last night and I feel lost and feel like I don't know what to do with myself today. Don't wanna be trapped in the house, but the only other thing I will do is drink if I leave...
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Hey girl I just got out of rehab yesterday and I’ve been sober since November 1st after a week long blackout. I suffer from bipolar disorder and ptsd. I know how hard it is to wake up with panic attacks especially in the middle of the night… just take one day at a time and try to be mindful, I know it isn’t easy but god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers, you got this!
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I too have D&A and a recovering alcoholic. To stay sober, I have to be connected with a support group like AA. If I don’t, I start to think like an alcoholic and that means big trouble.
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Sorry you’re feeling this way. How are you today? Are you ok? Are you in any present danger, or is it just your mind on hyper mode? For me, anxiety is a constant I have had learned to live with. I I like to get outside (I live in a warm climate), and connect with Mother Nature. I keep reminding myself I’m ok…my family is ok…everything is ok. We are all safe, and the universe will watch over us. I repeat the serenity prayer over and over. I remind myself that have no control over people, places, and things. I ask for help to let go of what worries me. Sometimes I need to go thru a bunch of positive affirmations as well. I’m ok just the way I am. I am worthy. Lastly, I do what you’re doing…I ask for help. I call my sponsor and friends in AA who know me, and can relate to me. ODAAT 
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Hello, To all of you who are fighting this battle, I commend your effort on staying sober. I've been sober for a little over 10 months now with no relapses and yes it's hard especially because I go to the bar still and play pool but only drink water and I'm able to see the drunkenness of others which helps me further understand why I don't need to drink and don't want to. It's very hard when there's no one around, especially seeing that my ex girlfriend attacked me after she relasped on drugs and alcohol and completely ruined her life in 1 month from the 1st time she relasped. I'm single now after she went into a complete state of alcohol and drug induced phycosis where she was hallucinating, having delusions, bashing my name to her friends and then eventually attacked me and bit part of my ear off. Of course there is alot to the story so just know I'm not bashing her for her actions as I do sympathize with the experience knowing her suffering from multiple mental health illnesses and drug and alcohol addiction along with personal experience that have and still affect her internally. Be strong, I got the Mike Tyson/Holyfield bite, but that won't deter my confidence or desire to stay sober. If anyone is in the Sacramento area and wants to hang out and do sober activities, I'm open to meeting new friends.
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I am okay, just when anxiety hits it is absolutely debilitating. I appreciate the kind words and suggestions. Keep doing the work, I'm happy for you
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I Can relate to that as most of my friends still go down to the bar right down the road. It's just hard for me at this beginning point to not drink anything yet, I'm not saying that I haven't because there's been times where I've only drank water, but I'm more likely to drink alcohol. I don't have a whole lot of friends that don't drink which makes it very tough
This wont easy for you by any meams. But try to look at the positives. Being sober will allow your mind to be clear. With clarity you can focus on healthy coping mechanisms, talk it out with clear thought. Drinking or using only buries the feelings. They always will pop back up often worse then before. Although this will be a difficult time and very unpleasant feeling. In the long run you will be better off.
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