Anxiety and urgency

Recovery
#1

I am having a hard time trusting in gods timing right now. I cant believe how behind i am for my age. I did excellent in school, i thought id do better in life. Now i feel like im being held back like a kid being held back several grades for poor performance.

The reality is i did very well at my former position. But my employers kept confusing my performance with someone elses. Like our report cards got switched around or something! Thats what it feels like. Its scaring me.

I dont want to end up homeless and alone again. Its terrifying.

I feel like i havent achieved anything because i havent been able to sustain it. I wake up with panic attacks. I need security, stability, and comfort. It makes me want to use drugs and alcohol so i can relax or put this energy elsewhere. I wont use but im lacking what i need right now.

3 Likes
#2

I was in a similar state Zenni. I had severe anxiety. When I saw my doctor she suggested an antidepressant. I didn’t like the idea but I was willing to do anything to combat what I was going through.

Another thing that helped greatly was eating and drinking less carbohydrates and more fruits and vegetables. I also use supplements. A multivitamin, ashwaganda, saffron, and magnesium.

1 Like
#3

I was told that when we stop drinking, we take the age that we started drinking then we add our time clean and that’s the age our mind is I have 15 years and I started drinking at 14 so my mind is like a 29-year-old and I am 66 Being in recovery and working. The program of recovery is a whole different world that we were living when we were in the world drinking and drugging so you start from zero and all the months add up in to years. Our lives beginning sober is just that in the beginning your months and then years and then multiple years and that’s what you’re living clean and sober step-by-step. That’s why we have steps day by day we follow that’s the process keeping it simple and easy. Does it what I love most about getting sober is that if I’m having a bad day, I can start all over again in the same day​:innocent::pray::heart:

1 Like