Any new sober members? Had a rough night last night and am needing to get back on track and stick to healthier habits this time. Thinking someone looking for the same thing would help talking to.
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For me, healthier habits, were always the goal. The problem was, that I was powerless over alcohol. No amount of good intentions, solemn oathes would do it. Change of scenery, change of friends - were band aids. The problem was: everywhere I go, there I am.
I would sincerely tell myself every single morning- today will be different. It will be different, because I went to the gym this morning, and I'm reading this book now. So this is the ticket. 2 days later I was drunk. Disappointed and shamed at my lack of willpower, I would drink some more. Why can't I stop? Because I am powerless. That's a tough pill for a 6-2, 200 lb successful man to swallow. Everything I had ever been taught was based upon the concept that I was to be a self sufficient creature, successful to provide for others. Nowhere does powerlessness and asking for help, then having the HUMILITY to accept the suggestion and help, appear in the definition of being self sufficient provider. I had to abandon my my pride and ego. When the thought of a drink came to my head, I got in my care and drove to a physical meeting. During my first 30 days, there were days I had to go to 5 meetings a day. Because I was possessed with the notion / idea "I got this" I did not have it lol. Ever. For 20 years I battled that insanity.
I'm here sharing, hopeful that you don't suffer that same prolonged, miserable existence. I only hope my train wreck of a life can be of purpose to another: you don't have to take the misery train to its final stop. I could have gotten off at many different points. But, I needed all the failure, all the pain to be convinced. It's a miserable road, filled with over 50 visits to the ER. 10+ detoxes, 4 rehabs, 6 dui's; county jail, psych wards, homelessness, suicide attempts. All Because I could not swallow my pride enough to take one simple suggestion.
GO TO A PHYSICAL MEETING, AND ASK FOR HELP.
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I’m 40 days in! New as can be glad to help anyway I can 
best of luck you can do it build an amazing support system around you !! Use it to lift you up
Welcome aboard! This ap and its family have been great support for me. I hope the same for you. Wishing you happiness always!!!
I’m new I’m 13 days from my last drink. I’m doing my best and finding each day easier