Anyone else have a hard time when approaching milestones? Approaching a milestone myself and my thinking, behaviors, wanting to act on my own will, and staying isolated has really been acting up. Feeling alone, more than most days. Hard time to focus on meetings, sitting with myself, or attempting to do any work whatsoever. No intention on calling my sponsor. Have been glamorizing my past and how "fun" it was. Just needed to get this out somewhere.
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I get that way as well. In these times are the most important to reach out I’ve found for myself or it could turn around on me. I’m glad you came here to express this. Calling your sponsor would probably really help.
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I tend to self sabotage when I reach milestones. It's almost as if I don't feel worthy to celebrate my accomplishments. I've stopped counting my daily numbers. Once in a few random days I'll look it up and comment but I never celebrate anymore. I'm not sure how I feel about what I just revealed.
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No, I don’t get anxious around milestones. Birthdays, anniversaries, and other repetitive events don’t have an impact on me. I view time linearly and not cyclically. Maybe that’s why. I see every day as a new day, every month as a new month, and every year as a new year. None of them repeat. They are all new.
This Sunday is a different point in time as last Sunday. Every moment in time is different than the previous.
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Yeah self sabotage, poor me remember ing the using day's!!! Yikes that's a huge sign 
remember how glad that you quit. I relapsed after 13 years sober 50 days now I've reached enough started AA NA at 17 I'm 56 now peace brother!!!?e, y
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You're coming up on 2 years of sobriety. 
CONGRATULATIONS don't Phuq if up.ni agree with the self-sanotage stuff. You got this. Stay out of your head. You're going to be in the terrible twos. Keep up the good work.
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Same! The days approaching my actual milestone it's like I'm cursed or the devil is actively trying to trip me up! 
