Anyone else struggle with mental illness?
I suffer from psychosis due to past drug use. Delusions are the worst to deal with. It sucks.
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Yes, I still see things that others say they don't. Not t I mention I he things I see are scary. I have to keep reminding myself that for one God protects me as long as I'm doing right., and it's also a constant reminder of what is waiting to devour me if I choose to use again. Your not alone my friend.
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My sister is dealing with this post meth use. It’s hard to watch, I can’t imagine what it must feel like to go through it. Antipsychotics seem to be helping.
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Meth was also what got me...thankfully I've been clean of it for over a year. Alcohol seems to have taken its place though. My medication helps a little but it's still causing issues in my life and work. Hoping for the best for your sister
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Thank you so much. It caused her to lose her last job, but like I said, meds seem to be making it more manageable. Hoping for the best for you too. Thanks for the well wishes for my sis.
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definitely had major issues with depression and anxiety my man. certain types of medications gave me auditory hallucinations, but for the most part emotional distress was the outcome of my illness. i’m not promising a cure-all or anything, but there is one major thing that i enlisted myself to do that changed everything for me - i sought out what i felt was my true purpose in life and i’ve been going for it without care of what anyone else says or does. within this quest i’m on, i constantly face fear every day. i’ve made a promise to myself to force myself into at least one situation where i would have had major anxiety. the more i resist the voice of fear within me, the more my illness is rendered powerless. i haven’t been depressed for longer than a few minutes or overly anxious really at all in weeks now. it’s kind of amazing to think about. the amount of destruction that addiction was causing in my life. i hope you stick with your journey. the rewards i believe can be unimaginable. best of luck. you’ve got this! 
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I had psychosis way before drug use. I am also bipolar from too many concussions. Then the typical 3 (anxiety, depression, PTSD). Things have gotten somewhat better in sobriety and I also take my meds regularly instead of subbing drugs so that’s good. I’ve heard a lot of people say it went away for them, but I’m working to accept that won’t be the case for me. I have journaled my whole life and documented the hallucinations I had when I was younger and all the way through college. Using gave me an escape from my own head and also the illusion of control (esp with hallucinogens - I knew they’d happen at that time). Dealing with my past trauma and current mental health helps me stay on track. The common theme for all my mental difficulties is trauma. The more I process, the better I feel, and the easier it is to manage my symptoms. It’s not the only thing in my recovery, but it’s definitely a required part. For delusions, I usually don’t know it is one until enough people question it. I believed I had super vision in high school. That I could read license plates miles away. Sometimes people are nice about them, sometimes not. It makes it hard to trust myself sometimes tho. Like, am I making this stuff up or is it real. Cause that’s the thing right, you think you know it’s real, but that’s the thing that’s the delusion 
hang in there though. You’re not alone. I hope yours is short-term and that you learn to thrive regardless.
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Thank you for sharing. I've been journaling my thoughts and feelings and sharing them with my counselor/therapist. I started off with depression at 18 - which lead to drug use - which lead to PTSD and psychosis. It's been a rough ride but I'm doing everything I can to fight back and get my life back. Wishing you strength.
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Well let me just say they don't call it spirits in a bottle for nothing. I am still dealing with psychosis from alcohol., and I've been clean for over a year. Please listen when I say leave it alone.. It opens the door to evil. And leaves you vulnerable to those spirits.