Does anybody else experience racing thoughts, specifically bad ones? My head never stops. There are constantly thoughts and it’s exhausting. Mostly thoughts telling me to d!e. But when it’s not those, it’s that I’m ugly and fat (I also struggle with anorexia), nobody likes me, I just upset everyone and am a burden. I plan to talk to my therapist about getting on meds to stop/slow these thoughts (even the good thoughts RACE CONSTANTLY and it’s so tiring), but I’m scared to get on meds like that. I was addicted to Xanax when I was about 16/17. So I’m scared to get addicted, be “blank brained”, or it changes who I am. Does anyone else experience this? How did you make it through?
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I struggle with the racing intrusive thoughts. I also take medication for mental health. I would strongly recommend not setting yourself up for potential relapse by seeking medication you know you have abused in the past. There are many alternatives to benzodiazepines. They definitely have their place, but they are absolutely not the only medication that can be beneficial. I would strongly recommend working with your therapist to gain the skills, and learn the tools you may not currently possess that can help you work through these thoughts. To keep them from consuming you. I have personally worked tirelessly to come off medications since getting sober, I don’t want to rely on anything but myself. I’ve stopped & started enough to know I do need the help but I never stop surprising myself either with how my ability to cope increases with time.
Be careful.
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I recommend a book "re-wire your brain". We can not ever control the thoughts our minds throw at us, but we can find ways to control our response and reactions to those thoughts.. it helped me tremendously.
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I get it
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Thank you for sharing. Definitley not looking to be on Benzos. My therapist is well aware of my previous drug and alcohol abuse. I know they make meds that do similar things that aren’t benzos or nearly as addictive or addictive at all. I don’t want to be on meds, I’ve gone all my life without. But I can’t keep letting my mind tell me to unalive myself. It will win one of these times. I’m looking for meds as a temporary fix to help me until I am able to do it on my own so I don’t do anything stupid in the meantime 
Thank you so much, I will have to give it a read!
I have experienced this a lot. It has been a slow process to learn to love and forgive myself.
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Good morning Effy
Every day but the amazing thing is now I have tools and solutions to help me with those thoughts. Through the steps, and working with a sponsor. And completing the steps. I have tools and solutions to help me through.
One of these that I do today to help me is move a muscle change of thought. What I do is I think of my head as a cookie jar. When those thoughts come in I shake my head that is moving muscle then I start dumping out my cookie jar by shaking. My head then I start putting good thoughts in that is changing I thought.
One of them I do today is called breathing. I hope this all helps. God bless you have an amazing day.
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