Anyone have trouble explaining your experiences?

Anyone have trouble explaining your experiences?
I made a mistake that still haunts me. I said something very and incredibly rude that it makes me sick to my stomach. It’s not who I am and I don’t even have those thoughts sober. Idk why I even said it what I was drunk. How do you all cope with this? Did you or have you said stuff in a black out that you not only think but never even think?