Anyone know the struggle of not knowing how to get out of a toxic family situation. But too scared of being truly alone. So scared that the minute you leave thats when the job will fire you and you will be right back where you are?
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If you're struggling with family.. you may need to back up a little and focus on you 
scary? Yea. Should it stop you? No? Sometimes you gotta worry about you.
It feels hard but you will finally hit that point in your life where it has to happen. I have several family members who are very toxic and I finally had to cut ties. It was a huge weight off my shoulders and I have never regretted it. You need to put your happiness first.
Family cam be your biggest problem when you are trying to better yourself.....i know fir fact and it sucks but it took me a long time.....too long to be truthful and finally turned my back and it was the greatest move besides getting sober and clean.
That fear of being alone is crippling at first! I went through it and I finally traced it back to abandonment wounds from being a kid! It is not real… I took a trip to Thailand alone for 2 weeks and faced it head on and so much anxiety came up during that trip!! I also fought going back into a relationship I know theres no connection just to not be alone. I understand this fear but if you truly shine a lighter light to on it you will see you are safe and it will show you how powerful you truly are! Just leap and let universe guide you!!!
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Thanks everyone
I appreciate this. I am still struggling with the world and life.
Leaving toxic situations is terrifying but staying can hurt your recovery. Have you called 211? They can connect you to housing & support resources in your area. The first steps are terrifying. I was severely codependent for most my life and I just got to a point where I had to trust this process. It worked. I no longer need to depend on anyone and have built a beautiful life for myself. Not sure that’s your exact situation but you can do this.
A change in perspective is what it took for me to stay in a similar situation.
I looked at everything the person I was with was doing and saying.
I took time to learn why they were doing it.
I learned to change how I reacted to what they were doing.
Slowly and deliberately learning to work on my mind and my patience.
Learning 'tricks' like watching them explode at me. Imagining myself screaming back as ugly as that.
Patiently not replying.
It was not easy. But each time I practiced self control I got stronger. Similar to going to a gym. First time you go you feel beat up.
Each time after its easier.
I looked at the bottles and realized that's not what I am doing today.
I saved money slowly for when I would be asked to leave again.
When I had my journals, phone lists, etc, damaged and destroyed it hurt.
But I knew things would get better. Having faith in the process is impossible some days. But going back to my old ways would not help anyone.
Today I am stronger because of it. I can handle many other situations with grace.
I recently read something like this that may help you 'strong because I was forged in the fires of h3ll'.
I wish you luck on your journey. I have faith you too will make it out of there.