As i have most of my life not believed in god or a higher power. I am trying to figure out whata higher power means to me. This is what i got so far
I know this a power of evil or bad per say. So if the world is a place of balance of these two powers there must be a powernover all that is good. But i have no name for it and unsure of its role in my life and the universe. Anyone have similar feelings?
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I know it for certain. I get promises and direction from the Most High and it always proves correct. I still falter, but I get back up and I am forgiven. Don't think you're not known to God.
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That's exactly where I am! I know there is God, but I'm not sure what that is for me
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Your recovery doesn't need a name for God to find the power of Good. Just keep seeking and you will find.
James this is one of the most honest things posted in here in a while. A lot of people in recovery themselves asking the same question. Whatever you end up calling it, the fact that you’re looking for it matters more than having a name for it yet.
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Yes, I realized that I have the choice to create my own higher power and I choose “goodness”. For many years i was lost and reactive. Dogma and societal expectations were thrust upon me.
Sobriety and the 12 steps set me free to change my perspective and choose.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
Ty you all
Okay James.
You are not the Lone Stranger (Ranger)! lol
It is easier than you think. 
read page 44-47 in the Big book of AA and you will see that your not the only one that has tried to figure this out when they arrived at AA’s doorstep! Keep in mind your asking Step 3 questions. There are two steps that lead up to the 3rd Step.
Yes, if you read page 44-47 I believe it will help you better understand. It sure help me in the beginning!
Thanks,
Ron
Ty
Yes, the higher power thing has been a long, drawn out process for me in terms of shedding all the pounded in religious notions I had so many issues with. I thoroughly complicated the issue through a ton of comparative religious, philosophical, occult and spiritual analysis. I can’t work with what I call “sky daddy” notions of god (old man in the sky listening to prayers and granting wishes kind of thing). But more as a force of nature which works towards a higher degree of order and harmony. Acting through both our unconscious and other people and the outside world. The important part for me in recovery is that I remain open to it and willing to make changes as needed. I don’t naturally like to discuss my ongoing struggles with life with others, but I’ve found that when I do (at least with the right people) I’m more self aware and better able to maintain a healthy mental state and life goes a lot smoother
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Maybe do some research on Omnism or Pantheism.. I’m the daughter of a southern Baptist preacher and can quote scripture till I’m blue in the face. But my beliefs are FARRRR different than how I was raised.
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We can create our own understanding of God. We can't create our own God. God is the Creator