Does anyone else feel like their head is LOUD some days? Like in my last relapse, which was by far the worst of any and all of my previous ones, I began to feel and hear things that no one else could. I felt like everyone was lying to me about it and were just messing with me which led to more isolation and depression. Some days are better than others but one days like today where I have a cold and don’t feel 100%, my head is LOUD. And I just pray I’m not the only one that experiences this. It can be really discouraging and I’m really just hoping that I’m not as alone as I feel right now.
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What do you mean by LOUD? Like noises are louder or the self talk is loud? Either way I can def relate. In my early sobriety even now over a year in it gets loud for me. I just have to change the self talk so that the loud is positive.
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I mean like the self talk, the condemnation, the past trying to show up and ruin the day. I’ve never dealt with this before in recovery or even in a previous relapse.
One thing that helps me is a quote my therapist gave me. "You can't make up for what you've done, you can only do better." I have to say that often for sure. Also thinking "would I talk to a sick friend this way?" Helps too. We aren't perfect and all fall short. Wounds and mistakes heal over time but our past can become our greatest asset. Read "to the family afterward" in the AA big book. There is a paragraph on page 124 that starts with "Henry Ford once..." it is profound.
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What Dan said!
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I like the way you think Kimberly,
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Thank God for the Dan's in the world, you guys are so helpful
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Raven if I could add some input, specking for myself and relapse which I have tons of experience at the thing that often led to them with me a lot of times was quotes from ppl saying that thier worse day sober is better than their best day drinking and I always thought well that's not true before my addiction developed I had a lot of fun times but I'm not that person anymore I CANT drink in moderation and or use, not anymore cause it's never enough (1000s never enough) my addiction has developed into a life threatening disease literally, the last two times I relapsed I ended up in the hospital, no matter how bad my day is I want to live!!! Sorry for the book long comment lol bless everyone fighting the fight and good luck...
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Sometimes mine yells at me!
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Oooo sounds like serious brain issues ... maybe more repetitive type problem brought on by not dealing with things as they come up...
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Yes been there for me I had to slow my whole life down and start dealing with stuff like an onion and I was very very sick and I had a lot of things to deal with but I didn't drink and I dealt with it and it was hard but I wouldn't trade it for anything doesn't mean I thought I was doing the right thing or the best thing I just had to do what they said
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I feel like this today too
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My “loud” in my head is trying not to think about my ex-boyfriend. Memories play in my mind, I see a car like his drive by me on the highway….it’s stupid but at least I’m not reaching for alcohol like I did before.
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When things are loud, and getting louder. Meetings! Get it off your chest, I believe in you!!!
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I think that if God forgives us we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise, it is almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him. Cs lewis
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To try 100 things is worth it tp find your solutions
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