Back at 1 day… why do I do this to myself 
why is it so hard..
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What are you going to do different this attempt? If we do the same thing over and over and get the same results…. I’d ask what are the things that you know you need to do to get well but have made excuses not to do? I’d suggest doing those things. I lived in a similar pattern for years, I could get a couple weeks maybe sober but would pick up every time. I only found success when I was willing to do absolutely anything to get sober and save my life.
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We all have 1 day.
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Don’t stay in the shame. Just go to a meeting and stay in contact with someone in recovery it helps get through the day. Wake up and do it again. 1 day at a time! Read step 1 when you wake up that helps me.
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I’ve never really gone to meetings because I tried it here and there and it didn’t feel right but now I’m seriously thinking I need to try again. This being alone and trying to stay sober is not good. Especially when my other half is also going through the same things as I am. He doesn’t want to go.
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This is how I was I was depressed and sad, I'm happy i went to residential recovery
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I was told anything in life Worth having is never easy .. Atleast you’re back, so Welcome back
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Welcome back and keep coming back, one day at a time
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No body said it was going to be easy. That’s why we have AA. Meetings. Fellow alcoholic members that are going through what you’re going thru with this disease. Gotta put in the work and take it one day at a time.
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Hey there. How about thinking 'why I am not going to do this again'?
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Waking up with the shame and regret the day after is my motivation. I never hated myself in the morning when I stayed sober the day before. But after a day of drinking, the remorse and worthless feeling is unbearable!
I like me sober!
I do not like a lot of things about AA but going to meetings was the only thing that allowed continued sobriety for me. I did online only for the first few months. You can also just try going to different meetings if certain ones make you feel uncomfortable. There are a lot of them and different groups/meetings have a different vibe. Being around others who have continued sobriety helps. I know if I dont do that I will drink again. So for me its either deal with the consequences of drinking again or go through the pain of reaching out, having people give you suggestions you dont want to hear etc.
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Nobody wants to go to their first meeting. Zero people wake up and say “my life is so good I think I’ll admit utter defeat at the hands of drugs and alcohol and ask a bunch of strangers for help”.
But once we get over our ego and accept that our way of controlling alcohol does not work, we find a willingness to try a new way. For me that was 12 step programs.
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Day 1 or day 1,000 we all have room to grow and learn so don’t beat yourself up, just get back to work, you have this!
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Please remember that you have great value, and that staying sober helps you exercise your talents and enjoy your gifts waaaaay better. IMO shame is a tool of the devil but hope leads us on the path. You know you can do this.
I also don’t enjoy AA. A mindfulness addiction recovery course online plus therapy really helped me. It helps to have sober friends as well. Learning new tools to handle life’s challenges is crucial plus having a support system for inspiration and when you’re struggling. You’re already making the right steps by reaching out for support here! You can do it!
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Thank you so much! That really means a lot! I’m going to check online for that and you’re right, I am reaching out on here 