I've had what seems like a million day 1 and I'm tired. I hope this time it sticks and it will be my last day 1 
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Don’t ever give up trying. Each attempt to get and stay sober will help you eventually get to stick. For most of us, alcohol has to beat us into submission before we finally give up fighting it. Getting to that point where you know deep in your soul that you can’t drink like a normal person doesn’t come easy, but don’t give up because there is a solution
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Thank you!
I’ve had 8 million day 1s. Never made it a week. Struggled for two decades. January 1st this year was the last time I’ve had a drink. You can do this. Just don’t give up.
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Day 2 is the hardest for me. I know I can do it, because I've gone 7months before. I know what I gotta do! 
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You can do this. If you remember that there's really no upside to using then there's no more internal struggle and you can be free.
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You can do it. I struggled for a year to put “it” down, and what I’ve noticed is everytime I relapsed… my sobriety stints get longer and longer everytime.
Started with hours, got to days, gets to weeks. Just takes time and healing. Keep going Carissa! You aren’t alone. You can and will do it.
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And for me my stints get shorter and shorter. 7 months, then 4 months, then 3 months, a handful of 30 days and a million day 1s. But, I do know that I can get as many days as I want-just gotta put in the work.
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“I have to show up and fight for myself everyday”
I heard that and something (can’t explain it yet but something) clicked when I heard it. It’s a fight and the fact you’re on here displays that you still have that fight in you. Please keep going. I believe in you.
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It’s so hard. I am with you.
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With support it gets easier everyday… we don’t do this alone
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Every day is day 1 for me just about. I feel ya.
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I highly recommend the book, This Naked Mind, by Annie Grace. If you don’t have time for reading, you could get it on audiobook so you can listen to it while driving, doing chores, etc. It helps to reprogram your subconscious and unconscious thinking about alcohol, which is a huge and insidious factor behind our beliefs and urges with drinking. Annie Grace is a pretty awesome and relatable woman. She also has a podcast, a blog, and a 100 day challenge. Google her and check it out. Lots of resources from someone who’s been there and wants to make it easier for others.
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An earlier comment resonated with me, because I have seen this in so many people I know “for most of us, alcohol has to beat us into submission before we finally give up fighting it.” The sad truth is, I have also seen alcohol beat many people to death. My father died drinking and driving. My mother lost all three of her siblings to alcoholism and addiction related problems. And that’s just the handful that hit closest to home.
So just keep fighting sister! The alternative is deadly. There is a healthier, happier, more fulfilling life out there waiting for you.
For many of the people I have seen find success with giving up drinking for good, finding a community of supportive, sober friends is paramount. It is so healing and validating to have people who can relate to your struggle, offer wisdom in the tough times, and care about reaching out and helping when you are struggling. Do you have someone in your life who’s been in your shoes that you can call when you are thinking about picking up a drink? Someone who can help talk you off the ledge? That can be a huge help with stringing together some sober days.
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Here to support you from the PNW. They are just hurdles to overcome. Some have more than others. Take inventory and decide the things you are strong about, what makes you strong and them apply that to your recovery. The fight is real and it is worth it.
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This naked mind podcast is great as well.
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Hi. May I make a suggestion please. Have you been to a detox facility? They will put you on craving medications and probably set you up with a recovery team. That’s what helped me and I left with Counselor, Recovery Coach they ran Intensive Outpatient Program then immediately followed by Early Recovery Program. I would have never done it without all that help. Will be celebrating 35 months on Sunday and feel amazing. I mean the damage I did to just my daughter is still trying to be fixed. But trying recovery without help would not work for me. I needed to be held accountable and thank god they did that. Random screening was used so that was also a plus. Please if you really want sobriety try to get professional help and medication to help with the cravings.
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I sought and received professional help on 2/25/21. I was in an I.O.P program for 7 months and in and out of AA since then. I can say that although I've had many relapses since then, I would probably be dead had I not sought professional help as there were so many things that I needed to work on that I never knew even existed. And with the help of counseling and treatment I was able to address and fix them.
I would head to the store everyday on the way home from work, so that's the worst time for me. I'm off this week, luckily, so yesterday I was able to just stay home and hop on an AA meeting for 8 hours (yes, 8 hours!). Shortly will be headed to go on a 5 mile walk with my dad, and I know that will help, being in nature always does.
Read the big book with your sponser and DO the steps
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