Back at it again

Struggling Help
#1

I was sinking. I am pulling myself out, I know I can. I have to muster all my strength and not let despair sweep me away.

Five days clean. Taking a leave of absence from getting my masters and allowing myself time to take care of and express self compassion for all the trauma and grief that has been consistently surrounding me, swarming me.

Medical health and mental health instead of pushing and pushing myself until I'm destroyed and I have nothing left to give.

I don't want to hate myself anymore.

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#2

You have a beautiful writing style. I hope you feel better soon!

#3

Your a beautiful soul Laura, your going to get through this, your going to overcome this challenge. Sending lots of love and prayers

#4

I am five days clean too. Self-care is so important and it’s good that you are prioritizing yourself. Don’t expect perfection in yourself and allow for Grace. :blush:

#5

Thank you. Similar cycle for me. Been learning to just keep getting back up and carrying the new learnings to whatever the next step is. I hope you feel peace.

#6

Laura don’t write despair off as exclusivity villainous. For me despair was a gift. It was what I needed to get my @ss into rehab and follow up with AA. We don’t have to hit absolute rock bottom, we just need enough despair to see the only answer is to get out of our own way and ask for help.

#7

The Doctor's Opinion

Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are

restless, irritable and discontented

unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the

phenomenon of craving develops,

they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an

entire psychic change

there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”

Laura

This psychic change is acquired by doing the 12 Steps of AA or NA.

The good news is that you never have to drink or drug again!

#8

Stay strong everybody on this page is going through the same thing… don’t hate yourself right now. Love yourself for today and tomorrow will be better. Your mind will slowly grasp new things and enlighten a brighter future. Just give it a little time write down your thoughts, take a walk turn your phone off take a hot bath and relax cry. If you need to cry laugh if you want to laugh today, you can live life to the fullest, and know that you don’t ever have to do drugs, or drink ever again, you have a beautiful soul and putting that out there helps me realize I’m not alone and thank you for your words and you’re not alone either!!! :muscle::pray:t2::muscle::pray:t2::muscle::pray:t2: