Back at staying sober. I tricked myself into thinking that I can have one drink. I went straight down the rabbit hole. I truly need a therapist.
Hang in there! I have been there many times. The good news is that you want to keep trying. Don’t stop trying!
Thank you
I went down that hole several several times. I had to change my mindset and so far it’s working. I can’t let myself condone or rationalize that first drink no matter what I tell myself.
That rabbit hole is deep and easy to fall into. The fact that you are here and have posted this is AWESOME! Never give up! Look at alcohol as the POISON that it actually is physically to our bodies and mind and then ask yourself this question…. Why would I want to drink poison? 
Sal, welcome to the club! Many of us thought the same and went down the rabbit hole many times😅
AA is free and is very effective. Most therapists don’t understand us. Whereas most folks in AA completely understand, have real solutions and we support each other.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions