Back in the day, friendships were only short term or temporary but the older I get,the more I want long term friendships. I want the type of friendship that is strong and on a deeper level. I'm very sentimental, compassionate and loyal to the T. Since being in recovery,I hope to have sober and clean friends. I don't care if someone smokes weed because I do as well and proud to announce that. I don't trust just anyone and I don't let just anyone get too close to me too. With my past, I've learned to read people and I feel vibes and energy from people so I'm not dumb. I don't go to A.A for personal reasons and don't need it because since doing my recovery my way this time around, I'm doing better than ever. I also drink 0% alcohol beer's so I don't drink real alcohol and I make my own mocktails as well. Before judging me on how I do my recovery,get to know me first. Judgemental people that criticize me on how I stay sober and clean,try to get to know me as a individual
Thank you for sharing, I am going through much the same right now and it's great to see that others are as well... I have always had a difficult time trusting others and the word friend I don't throw around lightly. I have a lot of acquaintances, but I do not have a lot of friends. And that is with intention, I enjoy my own company and am actually more comfortable being alone than in the company of other people. Because to me, people can be very complicating, they come with their own perceptions, judgements, motives, and behaviors that I just wind up getting aggravated with. I am often misunderstood as though I am feeling some type of way, better than others or worse than others, but at the end of the day, that doesn't matter. I just prefer to be by myself and avoid this type of conflict on the daily. It's not always healthy though, and I realize this. Just be choosy with whom you hang with. This is your life at the end of the day, do it your way. You'll meet people if you leave the house, that's inevitable, and in places like this. Pick and choose your tribe wisely and before you know it, you'll have a couple people here and there, it takes time. But it's great that you're choosy and don't need validation through outside resources such as other people to make yourself feel better or fill some type of void. That's very mature and wise. Hope this helps, have a great day, and message me anytime if you want to.... I don't talk w many people either, or trust them, but I do give everybody a chance. Best of luck to you
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I'm the same way because since a very young age, I've been on my own and I raised myself. I've seen the worse to humanity and never really had my parents or "Family" and I don't use that word often because where I come from "the street's",being called family is the highest honour of respect and love. I don't have my biological family really in my life and barely ever did. I had no issues leaving Owen Sound (place of birth)for the first time on my own at 13. IF I call someone family,that is an honour,not a gesture. There's those who I am related to through blood but I have those who I call my family. I don't have friend's but I do have the very few who I call my family