Back in the hospital. Hopefully this is the last time. I wish asking for help was easier. I’m to the point to where I’ve pushed all my friends away and keep getting more distant from family. Does anyone else feel like a slave to their addiction? 
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All the addicts I know did at one time. You can break free! Hopefully you get what you need!
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Desperation can lead to the beginning of your path to sobriety. Some of us have to hit rock bottom in order to start our way back up in life. You can get your life back including friends and family but you must go to meetings and reach out for help. You cannot do this alone and I think you're proving it to yourself. Good luck!
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We are all slaves to addiction, otherwise we wouldn't be here. Glad you're getting help. The process is hard, but it's worth it.
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Thanks you guys 
Absolutely was a slave to my addiction. But with the right help, which includes a recovery team, AA meetings and reaching out to fellow AA friends, I hit 19 months sobriety. Not easy but doing it one day at a time. Good luck. You can do this. 
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It is never easy to ask for help. Ask anyways. You may find those you pushed away have been waiting for you to ask for their help.
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Thank you for sharing! I heard this saying on YouTube...the channel is called "Put The Shovel Down"...she says; (she is a "Licensed Drug and Alcohol Counselor") "You don't have to wait for an overdose, a prison sentence, etc... YOU can "Put The Shovel Down", At any point..." Please get help, before it's too late....
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You’ve discovered humility! Along with that my come some grace and compassion for yourself! Woo hoo! Asking for help should help move you along much more quickly to discovering you cannot do this alone with HP and community. We are all here for you. You got this! 
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We didn’t become addicted in one day so remember “easy does it”!
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Don’t beat yourself up. Yes, Grace and compassion. All of us slaves to addiction. Remember Michael Jordan missed many more shots than he ever made. And you can make this one too! Just keep coming back.
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Yes Justin, I too pushed away family and friends now I’m trying to repair and establish connections to them . Being sober showed me how to do that. Our disease is centered in the mind and wants us alone or dead. We need family & friends and a program to stay amongst others and not be alone.
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Thank you all. I’ve managed to level out the brain chemistry a bit and catch back up in school. I have a fatty liver to deal with but I’m looking at it is an omen. I knew it was going to come one day. Hopefully this is motivation enough this time.
I understand pushing friends and family away a very lonely way to live trust me I know glad u r ok we have got to get better or live in misery
So many times I told myself I was the master but I most definitely was a slave..what still baffles me is how the program has given me the key and I still tarry in this prison...and willing clasp the shackles...glad we get the chance to try again