Back in the same old situation; I try to make new friends. I always make the same errors in judgement and choose those who just " come around". Lyers, cheaters, and toxic relationships. Now, alone again, I am ashamed to reach out, let alone go, to a support group. I think they must have given up on me, too. I think I am close to giving up, too. My track record for sobriety is morbid, my version is distorted. I can't tell good from evil, and I tend to go the easiest way possible. Can anyone out there give encouragement so I can become whole like I was, like I remember, with supportive community that values rather than uses me. I know, Maybe I should be more accepting, but I used to have standards and morals and ethics. Reaching out, anybody...
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Thanks for your encouragement. I will have a plan; starting now, tonight, I will start into the big book and related literature. I will go to a meeting, albeit virtually, tomorrow and have arranged for a ride to a meeting Friday. I will pray and humble myself to support groups and counselors. I will seek out and develop new relationships. I will taper off to 0 in about a week( I've been to detox too many times and I always had some stash at the house, so I wasted all that time and money). I appreciate you and this platform for hearing me out and not giving up.