Im not being too hard on myself because I know what comes with depression. Chronic depression comes and goes and my medicine happens to be alcohol. But I need to learn that when life gets hard, I don’t need to be depressed and self sooth. I need to learn be more grateful of the positives I still have and mindful that my depression leads to my constant relapse. I’m trying to change.
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My hago res that masked themselves as bibolar went away after a year of sobriety. I went on depression/ anxiety attack meds for a year then weaned off. No more depression or anxiety.
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You got this! I know exactly what you’re feeling I been there! I’m bipolar and I didn’t know what was wrong with me, I was medicating myself with pills, I had just got out of a toxic 18 year relationship and i relapsed after being clean for 3 years, now I’m 47 days clean and sober! Keep going!
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Well, I take depression medicine that’s prescribed and I know that alcohol when you’re depressed just makes you more depressed. I don’t know if that helps you or not.
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How are you feeling Lisa?
Medication allowed me to work my program and after awhile I was able to work my program without medication. I need to work my program, which is spiritual, so may I never forget the depths of depression because I don't want to go back.
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A doctor has already started me on depression meds but I stopped taking them about a week ago. I lost my job and I don’t have health insurance now so it’s just something I can’t afford. The meds are cheap but the doctors visits everytime to get a refill are expensive for me at the moment. So I just stopped.
Thank you. I also try to do something similar when I can get out of bed.
When I stop drinking I am much happier. But it needs to be replaced with another way to cope with my problems or else I go back to the only thing I know. The gym is usually my happy place but I stopped going once this depression started because I just want to be in the bed. But I know what I have to do. Get my healthy routine back
Today I am a lot better. I’m still recovering from this hangover but today is a much better and productive day. Thanks for asking
You only fail, if you quit trying. You go girl
Many people including alcoholics have tried drinking to suppress their depression. The problem is that it only makes it worse.
There are promises from the program of Alcoholics Anonymous if you take the prescribed method of recovery.
Promise 1: We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
Promise 2: We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
Promise 3: We will comprehend the word serenity.
Promise 4: We will know peace.
Promise 5: No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
Promise 6: The feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
Promise 7: We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
Promise 8: Self-seeking will slip away.
Promise 9: Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
Promise 10: Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us.
Promise 11: We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
Promise 12: We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
If that sounds like something you want then I highly recommend that you start going to AA meetings, get a sponsor who will take you through the 12 steps.
If you keep on doing what you've always done, you'll keep on getting what you've always gotten.
Nothing changes if nothing changes!
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Relapse is a part of the process. You learn a little more each time. I need to remind myself of that as well. We’re in this together. 
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It happens! I relapsed and it’s been 19 days sober since. All we can do is pick ourselves up and get back on the path.
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Antidepressants work great and you know alcohol creates more depression even though you get the temporary good feeling until alcohol stops doing that for you.
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