Back to day one. I do good for a couple weeks. Then i slip into a dark place that I don’t want to see or talk to anyone. I isolate and shut down. Then i go to alcohol to try and feel better. It works for short term. I know I an gonna wake up and feel awful and start over again.
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Hang in there! I’ve been there myself a bunch of times unfortunately…. But just get back to doing the work , u can do it
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That was me before I got 4 DUIs. I definitely beat the addiction in jail (over a year), but the main difference between me now and me back then is now alcohol is not even remotely an option for a remedy. It was an option for the old me, but not the new me. You must decide to let the old you go, and pray constantly to God to fill the void.
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Yea I was clean for 5 years then my girl just dropped me like the proverbial mic. I relapsed immediately. I didn't even think about it. Slept in my car stuff in overpriced storage. I'm at a really cool place in the woods now though, but I'm still getting high and wearing my " everything is great" face.
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Hang in there and pray to god he will listen. Stay strong I’m
Going tru the same thing🙏
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There is a couple place I can be open here and this page I made . It's a page for people who went to this fkd up Christian Nazi Jesus camp called Camp Tracey. We all went through sht and have PTSD. I never delt with the pain of that place drugs found me and I loved it
So al I clean? Fk no I'm not. But I am trying. As many of you know it's hard to say the least
Ok well I don't believe in God read above. The reason I'm saying all this really because I need to. Need to tell someone I'm fking up. Because I really don't have anyone that actually cares
Anyway I gotta go to sleep. Thanks for listening
Hey Linda I sent a friend request. I do realize I need to stop ok I gotta go