Backslid bad after 90 days. Not sure how to

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Backslid bad after 90 days. Not sure how to get back on the wagon.

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#3

Thanks for the reminder, Chris. I’m ready to be sober again.

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#4

Go to a meeting, we’ve all been there, your ego is going to tell you that you will be judged. Those of us trying to get better everyday, and empathizing with your struggle will open our arms and say welcome back. Each relapse was part of my story, contributed to my final breaking point, that allowed me to surrender to the solution and for me that was working the steps of AA. Don’t beat yourself up, if I can get sober and stay sober, you can. :pray:t4:

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#5

Start with today. As others suggested, make a choice to not drink today and get help.

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#6

Thanks, guys. I spoke with someone from AA earlier and I’m spending the evening with family, so I’ll get through today.

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#7

I can't remember what made me quit but I remember trying on and off for decades. It may sound weird but I think a lot of getting up the strength to quit was realizing nobody will love us as much as we love ourselves. That means optimal mental and physical health. Good diet. Ex. Sleep. On and on. Figuring out that treating my one life w the respect it deserved was key. Letting go of the f#ck it attitude. And now I am much happier but still have work to do.

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#8

“…nobody will love us as much as we love ourselves.”

Thanks, JD. I’ll remember that one.

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#9

Been there a few times my friend. Personally, I need a detox (medically if possible) because I drink a ton and have withdrawals that break me without help. Couldn't recommend it more , but if you can do without... awesome. Just hang with family and sober friends if ya got em. Stay away from triggering people and places. A list of Daily things I need to do helps me by keeping me on track and mind off booze, no matter how mundane; from brushing teeth to checking the mail. Just an idea. Attending physical meetings is also great, especially if you can find one that does things outside of meetings. You are in a fragile "slip up" phase and distraction is key imo. Good luck my man.

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#10

Congratulations buddy!

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#11

Thanks, Derek. That’s all pretty excellent advice. I can tell you walk the walk.

Stayed with family tonight, so I made it through Day 1 of the new start.

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#12

Maybe check yourself into a place for inpatient treatment? Uncertain of your thoughts on that particular idea. Be well manno!

#13

Thanks, Wayne. I’m going to hit some meetings and if they don’t work out I’ll probably look into checking in somewhere.

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#14

No matter what happens, I wish you all the best, hope you can find a sponsor (even if temporary), and/or that you remain well.

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We say to take it one day at a time, but if that’s too much than take it one hour or even one minute at a time. It sounds like you are ready to do whatever it takes. Learn from your mistakes, pick yourself up, and move forward. You are surrounded by people who love and believe in you!

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Thanks again, Wayne. I found a meeting within walking distance. I had to work today, and again tomorrow, so I’m planning on going Monday night. When started on the 90 days of sobriety that I screwed up it was cold turkey on my own. Clearly I need more help.

I really appreciate your support.

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#17

I am, thanks, Maya. I’m at about an hour at time right now but some of those support and love me are checking up on me, and I’m planning on attending a meeting Monday night.

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