it’s been about a month since I broke up w my high school sweetheart and I thought I was doing okay until they attempted to simply “follow” me on a social media app and it sent me down a spiral for whatever reason. ( im so aware this is a stupid reason trust me i was confused too when it made me have a panic attack at work lol) I bought liquor tonight, I started again drinking in the middle of the relationship, (My DOC is pills but drinking usually leads to pills) , and it’s gotten more frequent as time passes now that we’re apart. I know im not doing what im suppose to. I know I know better. But I can’t seem to pull myself out of the place in my head. It’s like im watching all the reasons I shouldn’t drink pass by, and I don’t care. I don’t feel the sense of urgency to pick myself up again. I am going back to IOP soon, I just feel like im losing it today.
You are not losing it. You are fighting addiction. We look for a reason any reason to not be sober. It’s a nice day. It’s a bad day. The list goes on and on. You are not alone. Get back up, brush yourself off and keep on fighting the good fight. I wish you the best.
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Sending encouragement, your value as a human being is NOT dependant on a significant other. You are enough! Do things that make you feel proud of YOU, read or watch uplifting books/videos, help out someone with something small, nurture yourself with things that bring you joy!
Self Love, and the unconditional Love of a Power Greater than ourselves is all that's needed. When we recieve. Love from others ita. A bonus. Not requirment!
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