Basically alot of stress and anxiety. I havent been journaling and i think i need to start again cause i had a small relapse and i need to start a new relapse prevention plan. My supports that i thought i had were there but i felt like if i told them they wouldn’t understand and be shamefull and disappointed more than help guide me through it.
Basically I’m ashamed that I gave into temptation substances due to not being able to deal with certain situations or being overwhelmed neither is an excuse
Yea my fiancé doesn’t understand thinks he does but he doesn’t especially when it comes to triggers I can’t control what triggers me. And no it’s not his fault I choose to make a mistake but I allowed myself to start thinking about using and wanted to blame him for not seeing the cry for help. Then couldn’t tell I was even high
I have got rid of all my friends and my family has all been split apart. I just got laid off so the racing thoughts and being in my head cause I’m not working is driving me crazy
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Thank you for being honest and transparent. Relapse doesn’t erase your progress or your strength. It’s a signal, not a sentence. You are showing courage by reflecting and plotting your next steps. Keep using your tools and don’t be afraid to reach out for support here. Sometimes we think people might not be receptive or judgemental because we relapsed, but I think a lot of times that might not always be true. Keep stepping out and stepping into more conversations. The one good thing is at least you’ll learn and you grow.
Our mistakes are what makes us stronger.Dont ever think that any person in the program will judge you.Your knowing you had a small lapse and getting back on the wagon is what matters most. Keep moving forward and try not to dwell on your mistake, instead use it as a stepping stone and don't take your foot off the gas.