I’ll be the first one to say that I haven’t been the best at handling life lately. I relapsed a couple of times over this past week. Breaking the news to my sponsor was almost as hard as telling my wife. To feel like you let someone down is tragic but to let yourself down is heart breaking. With so little time under my belt it was so easy to say f* it. I was weak. And now all I can think about is getting high again. I wish I could say I was a happy person in sobriety but I just feel discontentment and dissatisfaction. Maybe it’s just because I’ve been getting high first over 25 years and it’s just uncomfortable. I don’t know. All I do know is I want a better quality of life and to have that I feel that sobriety is the way to achieve that. I hope. Anyways just wanted everyone to know that you’re not the only one struggling out there. There are those of us that are still fighting and striving to do better than the day before.
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Unfortunately, it happens, Bruce. I’ve been there more times than I’d like to admit. All we can do is get back on the bike and try different things to maintain sobriety.
Thanks Jim. I appreciate that. I plan to do my best.
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You got this! Recovery and sobriety are not linear. Tripping up happens sometimes, but you’re doing the right thing by being honest with those around you and yourself! I’ll be praying for you.
Thank you Maggie!! It’s the love and support from those like you that carry me through the difficult times.