Been emotional this week after learning yet again about some favoritism that is going on and work. I don’t feel liked or appreciated at my job. I like what I do and can’t afford to quit and I haven’t been able to get past the 2nd interview stage. I’m trying to just focus on other things that need my energy (my relationship, getting married, cleaning my apartment, saving money, improving my health, etc.).
I know that I am fortunate and I should focus on that. I am one of the bottom two paid people in my office but my work doesn’t equate to that. I do put a lot of energy into my job and my work identity is a large part of my life.
I am fine most days and then when the bias is obvious, then I get upset. I’m not strong enough to fight the culture at work. I am treated at times like an imbecile.
I know I should not be complaining, mad at myself for not having a better work/life balance.
