Been sober 1yr and exactly one month now. Drugs and

Recovery
#1

Been sober 1yr and exactly one month now. Drugs and alcohol sobriety has been good but I still have these messed up horrible feelings inside me I used to shut off with drugs and alcohol and now I just live with them. I hate them and I don’t really know how to deal with them. Hobbies like exercise and spiritual work to an extent but they always seem to creep up back at me and kick me in the $@&. Don’t know what else to do.

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#2

What I don’t feel… I can’t heal. I have to feel my feelings, not run from them today. Meditation has been the biggest key to feeling my feelings. Emotional sobriety comes when I start to feel and heal, not numb out, cleaning, exercise, binge watching, a guy…. It’s difficult, but worth it.

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#3

Very good advice from Leigh Ann. I ran from my feelings for a very long time. I stayed “dry” for a very long time. Little by little the walls started caving in and I found other obsessive compulsive behaviors to escape having to deal with my feelings. This time around I have worked the 12 steps with a sponsor, and I have a daily program of recovery that helps me live “properly. It doesn’t have to be a 12 step program, but I do suggest you get involved with a recovery program that focuses on learning about yourself and changing your perceptions. You are off to a good start since you already have some nice clean and sober time

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#4

This is what the 12 steps are for. The book says we can quit for weeks, months, or even years with the right motivation. But sustained continuous sobriety depends on our reliance on something greater than ourselves.

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#5

Need to be a LONGTERM THINKER. Say that you drank and used for 20 years. It will be awhile for you to feel good. EMBRACE your RECOVERY and you will have it. TRUST THE PROCESS. THE DREAM. THE STRUGGLE. AND THE PRIZE. YOUR EMOTIONS WILL FALL IN LINE WHEN YOU CHOOSE TO DO THE WORK. YOU ARE WORTH IT. TAKE NO SHORTCUTS.

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#6

Im taking 15 min every time I have those thoughts to living them to the most extreme way. I cry, yell, get angry whatever i need but for only 15 min. I’m allowing myself to live them no matter what and it’s turning out now I don’t need to have those 15 min every day. It’s getting less than in the beginning.

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#7

Thank you