Been struggling with alcohol addiction for roughly 25 of the 39 years I have been on this earth. I have been wanting to quit for so long but keep making excuses or rules that just lead me back to the same cycle. Family is heavy drinkers and just wish I could stop.
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I’m there too.
I have a really hard time fighting my restlessness and the boredom.
Right now I’m just focusing on winning the day, fighting the urge to go out.
My family are heavy drinkers as well. On top of that, we own bars and liquor stores. Everyone wanted me to quit except me for the longest time. I'm 44. I drank hard until this past Dec.
I checked myself into rehab in December. I left after the 3rd day and finished detoxing at home. I stayed sober for 2 months. I relapsed 3 times after that. I got it right finally. I'm 72 days sober now.
I go out and I am around alcohol a lot but I don't have urges anymore. It's amazing.
My friends and family seem to be sober curious. Everyone looks up to me now. I kinda feel like I have to be the example.
Everyday I feel better and better. You can quit. Trust me. I was wild as hell and the person that everyone knew to call if they wanted to party. I'm glad I dropped my old self.
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Hi Drew
Pretty much the same story..but I think we can all relate.
It took me 3 stints in rehab and a night in jail , to finally get it.
Not saying I don’t struggle, I do, even with 5,770 days. ( counting days, it makes me feel better)
What I do know, because Iveseen it so many times, is one slip, and you’re right back where you left off.
Now, regarding the family of drinkers..that’s me, as well. I basically stayed away from the chaos, shut myself in, because I had to. But that was years ago and I can now be around anyone who is drinking without an urge to do so. I often get irritated ..but that’s nothing compared to what would happen if I took one drop.
You can do this! But not alone.
I’m new to the app, but just started going back to meetings because I’m struggling with life in general.
Back on the steps because I NEED to listen, and have people call me out on my bull-shit..and not my family.
Anyway!! Welcome! And you can do this! Because if I can…anyone can!
Love and Light
Chelle:dizzy:
Such a hard one to give up. Remember each time not to glorify the benefits in your mind. You have made a hard choice for a good reason and your life and body will appreciate you for it. Everything is hard at the beginning but imagine how you will feel a year from now. Keep your eyes on the goal my friend
Realizing there is a problem, and wanting to change is the first step. You have to do the work to get sober. Find a meeting to go to, maybe even consider detox.
So few people on this site talk about being lonely, relapsing, but I don't hear enough about sponsorship, going to meetings, working the Steps until you can LIVE them without having to think about it. My sponsor has always made me call at least 2 people in the program each day. We did a written step study every year. We went to lots of meetings. It seems hard at the beginning, but once I got my HP involved, I never had a craving for alcohol again. I have to say I'm grateful to be an alcoholic. I never would have learned how to live as God wants me to. I am happy, joyous and free today just because I listened to those AAs who came before. You can do it ! 
Correction : I meant to say so many people talk about being lonely or relapsing...
Don’t pick up and go to a meeting. Take a deep breathe and know that each day of sobriety will help you get healthier in mind and body. It will get easier but it is not easy at first. Know that alcohol is not the answer now nor was it ever. Alcoholism is a disease if left untreated there are three possible results and none are good. The great news is that if you know and admit you’re an alcoholic and you’re learning how to treat this disease you will get better. The same way a diabetic has to take care of themselves and treat their disease so do us alcoholics. You are not alone…
Keep trying if you can. It’s not worth giving up. Temptation is always present.. even if you failed today there are always more opportunities to keep trying. Meetings or social support is the best support. Whether religious or not, just focus on the fact that we’re all struggling and you’re not alone.. you’re never alone