I’m grateful to be alive today. As I struggle with my sobriety I also struggle with wanting to live. Aeschylus day I fight to stay here.
Even though I should fight for myself this face right here is a big reason I fight to stay clean. If I stay clean then I stay alive.
Welcome Jen! You should want to fight, not only for your family but for you. You did it before you can do it again!
Thank you so much. After I lost both my grandparents I lost a piece of who I am. And I’ll never be able to get it back. Learning to live each day with out the people who have up so much for me and my kids I feel like is impossible.
I haven’t grieved yet and it’s been a little over a year. I find myself fighting with myself not to. In my mind if I grieve then I lose them all over again. And that right there is something I cannot do.
I have only felt like this one other time in my life and that’s when I lost my daughter.
The road I went down I’m scared I’m going down it again and if I do then I don’t think there is any coming back from it.
Grief is such an important part of healing and being human, glad you're here (and still here) 
there's no timeline on grief or moving through the stages etc etc, so take it at your own pace and be gentle with yourself. Again, so glad you're here.
I understand as I lost my father who was the most important person in my life almost 2 years ago. I too went through a very dark time as I could not accept his passing. It does feel impossible to move on without our loved ones but just keep reminding yourself of all the great memories and impact they had. That positivity and love will continue to inspire you to live the best life you can. Live it for them, they would want that for you. Hugs 🩵
