I've learned through my journey in recovery that my relapse starts long before I pick up. It starts with my thinking, my attitudes, and my behaviors that are not in harmony with my recovery. All of these are factors in my choices and decision-making. Today I have to make a major decision, I have to leave where I've been living for the past year. I have a few options until my permanent home is available. I do not have a "gut" or intuitive feeling about which option I should choose or which is my best course of action. The good news is Im not acting on impulse. I've learned how to make better decisions, and I have many people in my life who are invested in my welfare, and I can lean on to help me process this and make the best choice. I know my Higher Power knows best for me, but I also believe my Higher Power gave me these options. Ultimately, I trust I will be where I need to be. My recovery is always my primary factor in my major decisions. One of the promises from doing 12 step work is to intuitively know how to handle situations that used to baffle us. I may not have an intuitive choice of housing, but I intuitively know when to ask for help and keep my recovery up front and foremost.
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…and this how it works. Life continues to present challenges and opportunities when we stop drinking. Nothing really changes, but we change how we choose to handle each situation. It is quite a relief to be able to let go a little and have faith that if we do the right thing then everything will be ok. With a belief in a higher power and a daily recovery program, it helps make the unmanageable a little more manageable lol. Good for you! I hope you remain peaceful as the situation unfolds.