I relapsed on May 25th and today have 40 days back. After talking with my sponsor, I made the tough yet right choice in blocking my ex. Sadly, after 7.5 months clean, I relapsed at her sisters wedding and let’s just say it got ugly. Guilt, shame, remorse, situational depression, lengthy texts you name it. I made this mess and I take full responsibility. Despite people loving the sober side of us, if they catch a glimpse of darkness they may choose to throw your a$$ to the curb. You fight so hard and try to remind people of your good qualities but this disease overshadows that in the eyes of others. Anyway I’ve always looked at blocking as a sign of weakness but I understand it’s the best thing I can do for myself in my road to recovery, step work and mental health.
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