Had to break up with my girl of 6 years cause we just couldn’t stay sober together. It just hurts cause I loved her deeply but it wasn’t working I miss her and dont have drugs and alcohol to cope I don’t know how long I’m going to be able to hold it together
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Victor, I’m sorry to hear that. Drugs or alcohol won’t make those emotions go away. In fact those emotions will stay with you until you cry some real tears. Focus on your sobriety program. Find a meeting. Talk about your struggles. Learn new tools to help with your emotions and feelings. I’m 627 days clean and sober. Almost two years separated going through a divorce and I still shred a tear when I think of the good times my ex and I had. Or when I think of how it could be now that I’m sober with a recovery attitude… I’m content with my consequences of my actions. I know my part in this.
I’m here
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Thanks man it just is what it is I guess
Welcome 
Hardest and most necessary decision you can make. Getting clean together would have been hard enough individually and impossible if you are codependent. I am in a divorce for the same reason so I know how you feel friend. Just recognize how much better BOTH of your lives will be. It's a brief sad time but I'm excited for you
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Hmu if u need an ear. Been in a similar boat. Almost sank. Stay afloat u can do it
I like your attitude
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Thank you
Attitude of gratitude
Thanks I appreciate it it was just a long time and I was sad about it first but the feelings kind of mutual now it’s definitely not gonna work out for staying sober and I haven’t been single in a really long time so I’m kind of looking forward to being able to run my own life for a little bit I’m just getting to where I need to be at
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Hey man keep your chin up! I'm currently in a situation that involves myself my wife and 5 children, both of us are pretty hardcore addicts on the plus side we recovering from opiates been clean off opiates and heron 7+years. On the downside, the meth seems to have pervaded my life and just will not let me be or my wife.. let's just say we (my wife and I) haven't found common ground on how best to fix this
Congratulations man that’s a big deal those kids need you guys clean and I’m happy for all of you meth is a just as much a fucking monster as opiates both of you got this it’s like anything else if you had 7 years you already know what to do about this
I think a lot of people have had this situation happen to them, including myself. After 3 rehabs while living with my ex, I had to leave. I can’t stay sober if he continues to drink. Very toxic especially when he buys it every night after work! Not worth it and I love him so much. He understands though and we will remain friends, but blocked him for the moment.
Sorry to hear that, I lost my girl and best friend of 10 years,she could not get this, I beared with it and have 11 years sober, its been hard, mostly difficult to get new friends, seems all I have is work and my house, staying sober is very important, more so than any relationship, then covid like the Devil steoed in and its been very crazy, I pray a lot, it helps
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You are not alone. Tomorrow is day 1. Work, volunteering, Make$$$. Move on. Go forward!!!!!! I was in your shoes 20 years ago. Millionaire now. Keep busy!!!!!
your courage and dedication are inspirational Kevin. thank you for sharing that story!
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Thank you Luke and you’re welcome. I’m glad to be of service.
Thanks for the words of encouragement! Yes I do have over 7 years of sobriety from heroin/opiates still haven't relapsed (I pray for continued strength to keep it that way), but I never seemed to mess around with meth really. Until I got sober and started treatment with Suboxone, which worked amazingly well and I owe everything I have even my life to those meds, but when I was on Suboxone I never got high from it never felt any buzz or mind altering affects of any kind; so over time I just felt like I got bored and let my mind wander to negative cravings. Knowing I wouldn't and actually couldn't do opiates/heroin any more #1 because the Suboxone would prevent any opiates from entering my dopamine receptors with the naloxone in it and #2 because I knew it was going to kill me if I ended up back hooked to that shit; I ended up gradually trying out meth and other "uppers" like Adderall and cocaine. It never seemed like a problem I mean I'd do some on a weekend with friends and then not even see or think about it again for months at a time. But at some point I either let too many ppl into my circle that were habitually using meth or I myself just started gradually using it more and more on my own, until now years and years later it feels like it's ruining my life. After all these years and hard work I've put into staying off opiates I just feel defeated because what's the point if now I'm just addicted to a whole nother drug?? And this meth shit man let me tell you it messes with your brain in ways that are very very scary at times. My memory is deteriorating rapidly, weight loss is significant and terribly unhealthy, during the high I will lose all sense of awareness when it comes to almost everything it seems: what time it is the date, whether I need to eat food or drink water it just all gets lost in translation. I mean I'm at the point now where I'm barely even taking care of myself enough to stay alive it feels like. I rarely bathe, when I do it's out of the cold ass creek running thru the wilderness of Alaska that I currently reside in as my home in my car and a tent, I make money by illegally selling a certain thing mywife and I both get every month (not opiates, but I'm sure u can figure out what I'm referring to), but all that money just goes to either more meth, or random useless shit that rarely helps me or my wife in any meaningful way. I've been in this mode going on 4 years now man, I'm getting scared. I know exactly what I need to do, the hardest part is that my wife seems to not want to stop. She just looks like she's gone. I don't even recognize her half the time anymore. I'm scared alone and need help
Heartbreak in itself is trauma. Your body feels a sense of shock, of loss. Yet, now is the perfect time to become better at changing your thoughts and eventually accepting your very new reality. You love her, and that’s courageous in itself but the right person for you will also help you fall in love with yourself. We learn from everything my friend.
Prayers sent for strength on your journey
Hi victor. I know how you feel, my ex and i had to call it quits because the drugs tore us apart. We can't be together without fighting it wanting to get high. It really really suck when you both are still so much inlove but you have to let eachother go... It's been over a year now since we broke up after 11 year relationship, we are still haveing a hard time letting eachother go, it is so emotionally draining, it takes up more of our time then our addictions. I feel stuck because i been wanting to quit doing these drugs but i haven't found a stopping point yet I'm also equally having just as hard of a time letting him go... I know i have to if either of us are going to succeed at getting clean, our kids deserve a sober mom and dad.... I feel so guilty. It's like everything in this cycle is keeping me stuck in the cycle and i don't know where to start and be successful.