I've been sober for over almost 2 years now, and I've somewhat gotten my life together. I have a girlfriend, hobbies, projects, and relationships with people.
Recently, I've been feeling this impending sense of doom and feeling like i need the relaxation and excitement of a high. I haven't touched a drug in 600+ days. Mentally I'm getting worse. More paranoid and anxious. How can I stop this?
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Congratulations on approaching the 2 year mark!
For me it’s been a little over 27 hours. Thursday November 6, 2025 was the last time I drank. The day after I was so sick. I stayed in bed all day. It’s Saturday November 8th and I’m just beginning to feel a little better.
I can’t tell you what to do but I know what I’m going to do. Today I’m going to find an AA meeting in my area and turn myself in! 
I recently joined a gym. Today I’m going to go in there. I’m probably not going to workout because I still don’t feel too good but I’m going to at least show up. That will be more I’ve done in the bast 2 days.
Something that helped me yesterday and last night was finding sobriety posts and motivational posts and prayers on Facebook. I deal with boredom, loneliness, depression, anger, and anxiety. That spent on Facebook and YouTube helped me.
So my plan is to replace the alcohol with AA meetings, physically getting in shape, and feeding my mind with positive and encouraging words and sights. Right now that’s all I know to do.
Oohhh one more thing but I’m already doing this. Eating healthy and taking my vitamins.
I am sorry I know the feeling I am feeling the same thing. I feel like I want to go back out there but I know the consequences if I do. 8+ months clean after a relapse of being clean for 7 months and it sucks . Hang in there if you need to talk just let me know. Be safe.
I think i need that. Can you message me?