So I’ve got almost 2 years clean and I was doing really good for awhile once I left my halfway then it was like things just kept falling apart I lost the man I’ve been in love with forever lost my job my apartment then I got another job got another place and was doing me again got to a point to where I was able to save money then it falls apart again cause I got sick it’s like no matter what I do somehow it always falls apart
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You are a battlefield. Never will there be a greater war than the one you hold with yourself - don't be discouraged... fortunate and unfortunate events happen, but the fight through them help us grow. Things will turn around; patience is bountiful 
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Are you actively working a program of recovery?
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I’m not currently going to meetings all due to the job I had was night shift and I went to work right around time that meetings started but I’m planning on getting back into them soon
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I’m with Brian, working a program is critical. Whenever I get too busy, I’m reminded of what my sponsor would ask. “So, we’re you ever too busy to get drunk or loaded? Or did you manage to find the time?”
When the pain became too great, I would get to work.
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Listen sweetie I’m right there with you, I left my husband one year ago I’ve been with him since I was 16 years old he was my everything but he has an addiction that he can’t control at all and doesn’t want to and lives a very hard life and I won’t put my child in that situation so you know I finally got a car I got a job I’m living at my mom’s at the moment but that’s OK everything is gonna fall into place if we do the next right thing, and listen my heart is shattered I’ll be honest with you I don’t know how to even look at another man but we will do thisBecause look at our past look at what we’ve been through we’ve conquered that and we are some strong women. I’ll pray for you please pray for me
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Hang in there! Life punches you sometimes, then kicks you some other times. One day at a time. Be proud that your clean and sober so you can tackle these things and not put them away or ignore them that would surely make it worse. Hang in there and reach out! Meetings are good try to get to one for sure if you can.
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Matt you literally took the words out of my mouth. My sponcor said the exact same thing to me.
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It’s admirable that you can stay sober when things fall apart.
I am aware that I relapsed and came back in and was so fearful I would relapse again. When someone said pride goeth before a fall I asked a friend if he thought I was arrogant. He said (because I am deaf), “No, but some people might think you are because they say hello and you don’t answer them because you didn’t hear them. If you fall, get up.” I thought that’s so simple it’s genius! Be blessed! I can’t. We can!
Hi Jessica, sounds like you've become very strong indeed! Sorry to hear of these things happening but they sure don't define you.
Drinking definitely won't help