This stuff is ruining my life, my career, my family and everything else, but for some reason, I keep going back to it
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I've seen it ruin people.
Have you tried NA?
Not only cost should deter you but what about it being cut with fentanyl which could kill you.
I’m sorry you’re struggling with coke, I’ve been there too. I hope you get well.
I have been there myself and it’s no fun! I did coke for so long I now have a deviated septum like the size of a nickel in my nose that’ll have to have surgery on at some point! I lost everything behind that powder!! It’s bad news! But getting on here and admitted it and asking for help is a HUGE step!! Sending prayers!!
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lol yeah okay because logic has ever applied to addiction
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Cocaine is a hëll of a drug. When you’re ready, get help. We can’t do this alone.
You’ve just described the very definition of addiction. I was where you are. Running on the rings of Saturn with no foreseeable way to stop. It took rehab for me, but I’ve seen others conquer it in the rooms of Cocaine Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous. I was on one of those Cocaine hotlines for 45 mins with a perfect stranger. I said I wasn’t sure if I had a problem or not. He said he couldn’t tell me if I did or didn’t. But then he asked me…What if you do? Get the help you deserve friend. Reach out anytime
Mitch my heart goes out to you. So glad you reached out! Just for a minute, if you come back to read replies, here’s from my heart to yours my Brother. Remember with me, who you were before the Drug. What your dreams were? Visions for your future. Who you wanted to become. A profession, a passion, your hopes for a family and a life. Let them line up in your mind’s eye. Everything beautiful and sweet and precious to you, that is the essence of your image for who you wanted to be, and hoped to have…. Every single, shining n beautiful thing will be ripped from you snd stomped into the dust, and mud, and lies and crushed. Set on fire. Destroyed. By a mindless, heartless, soulless powder, a poison. The people who produce this poison laugh n make fun of and hate and curse those of us who stoop to use it. They laugh at our misery n joke about the destruction of our lives at garden parties in their billion dollar mansions. Built on our blood, our tears and our deaths. I will never again be a slave mind body n soul, to heartless, money hungry predators that make billions on the slavery n suffering of others. I choose to pick my head up out of the trough n crawl away n let loving others save me with love, the truth, and carrying me until I can walk again. Think about it. Your life is worth more than feeding some beast who cares nothing for the human suffering and tragedy this poison carries. They just want the money n power. Stand up! Walk away! Reclaim your freedom! You will not be alone. I promise you, you won’t regret it! I did not say easy. It will be effin hard. But effin worth it!! I challenge you! Take back your life! You can do it. We will help you! It works. Try it! Why not?
Peace! Sky B:sunglasses:
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I was in your exact place not long ago, one day I promise you, you will have enough and take your life back. It took me 2 years of relapses to finally tell myself this is enough ! At first I'd only have clean time from it because I ran out of money then I slowly stretched my clean time further and further to the piont this July 20th will be my one year of no cocaine. When your ready this is what I did to get to where I am , I gave all means of buying my drugs to my mom, this meant bank card, credit cards, and my IDs so I wouldn't go to the bank to get a new card , I also showed her my banking app daily so I could show her that no e transfers were being made. It took 6 months of doing that and then I finally had some trust vault up for me to relapses last July. Then I sought help through rehab. I believe with such a strong drug rehab is a very good chioce for you to help you treat the reason you want to get high, we all have one. Got to dig deep and heal our traumas. If you want I can ask my rehab facility how to get the ministry to pay for it depending one where your living
That was me a month ago. I hit rock bottom, went to rehab, moved in with my parents. The newly sober life is hard but incredibly freeing. If you chase sobriety like you chased getting high, you'll turn your life around. Sobriety is worth anything.